Yesterday I was on a high. All day. I found out that I received an amazing fellowship from the University of Minnesota Graduate School. I was excited, understandably. I have worked hard as a student, and as a mom, and have been fighting to figure out my path in life. I am also a self-professed research nerd. So, you know, a chance to go back to graduate school is wonderful. And the fellowship allows me to excel in my program by paying me to go to school. I will be able to afford day care, I will get to watch my daughter as she experiences a "real" school for the first time, and I will be able to do it all without stress. At least not financial stress, not the stress of knowing I am borrowing ridiculous sums of money from the government.
Today, today. Today. Today, is not so sunny. I am still excited, and ready for the year to begin already. But I remember that the world doesn't stop for me. That doing the program is going to mean getting up, getting myself and everyone dressed, getting Leila to school, Akeem to daycare, and Malik to grandma's. Getting reading, writing and studying done. Completing two field placements. I know it's going to be tough. But, this time is different. I feel prepared. I feel like people are behind me, are excited for me to be going into this field, to begin connecting myself to the world through a different venue.
I am ready.
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ever since i read this, i have been meaning to tell you a big congratulations! this is great news. i understand it will be very hard to balance all your responsibilities but you will have a lot to offer your program.
(i ran in to your mum at naw ruz and she told me a little bit about your study plans - sounds fantastic)
since i'm also at a grad the u so i'm here if you ever want to talk about the ups and downs, i'm here! i also think i might know a cool lady in your program. but i'm sure you are well connected anyway ;-)
Does this mean you'll be on St. Paul campus? if so, we gotta make some regular plans to hang out cuz I'm nearby!
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